30-XI-1970.
On 19th there was a fuckup on geography. Previously, I got a 4 but she wrote it to Sredljak, confusion, eh. Today she pulls him out, "to make clear who is who", and he gets a 2. We're actually not alike at all. Then Bajče took a turn, made a drawing (moon's phases or something of the kind), and when he was done I raised a hand to complain, saying that the 4 wasn't mine, it was Sredljak's, so she commended my honesty, got me out to explain the details on that drawing (most of it wrong, which confused me completely) and I ended with a 2, too.
At a break, met Dragana. "That guy of yours is great", "Ah, he was so confused, I mentioned once that I stopped being a nun when you came to our class, which he didn't know how to understand, he didn't know you were with Duca, and was all suspicious until he saw the two of you go behind the church".
Then on 22nd, Dragana and Tejka came (without Duca, she had some guests from Romania). Dragana told how I was standing with her during a break, and that her guy was watching from upstairs window, and she turned her back in that direction. Later he asked who I was, obviously not recognizing me, and she told him to "take that whichever way he wanted". "Wow, you stirred that pot honestly. Does Tejka know..." "No clue". Then Tejka jumps in with "about what?" "never mind" "who is this about?" "G., me and my boyfriend" "It's about Blaženko, died three weeks ago" "Ah I know what you mean, I knew that before Duca did". Now this is extremely good, she knew about Duca and me before it happened, great.
On 23rd, at Tejka's place, she's buying chocolate because she lost a bet - Dragana didn't go back to Gradivoj. They went off to buy it, leaving Duca and me alone in the room, intentionally. But somehow the magic was gone, I said "I see you only at breaks, a couple of minutes, not fair" "Isn't". But it stayed at that and I didn't make any moves. It was somehow better before it was official. Now reading how it looked, it was, all those days leading to it were better than this one week.
And part of it is that it may be that Tejka is jealous, there were serious signs. So I had to check things she said, she may be dissembling here and there (like she did about my birthday last year...). So on 25th I asked Duca whether it's true that she doesn't feel like coming to my place. She said "we'll see. See you next break.". And then the answer was "it doesn't matter". She's hiding so much from me, I sense something wrong. Talked with Dragana and she also likes to play counter to Tejka, and we agree also on other matters. So... there's still that layer of ice between Duca and me, that I'll somehow have to break through. Just one week and already so many problems and very little time together.
Turned out Duca's parents were divorcing at the time, and nobody told me. Her dad is a drunkard. Actually dropped her brother at some point and he's never been right afterwards (unless he's one of those violent alcoholics, which means it probably was worse than the story that reached me). The day in court is near...
On 29th we attended a wedding - of Ivka. A delegation consisted of Milica, Miljka, one more guy, me and Tejka (from left to right). I was the photographer except for this one. The reception was in the army hall, next to Dom omladine. Don't remember much, just that it was cold, cloudy and just appropriate for the Republic day. I wore the new fall outfit that mom sewn for me. Duca is visiting cousins up north for the duration of the holiday, i.e. back on 1st.
Mentions: Blaženko, Branislav Bačikin (Bajče), Dragana Vitas (Dragana), Dušica Tošin (Duca), Gradivoj Čović, Gradivoj Sredljev (Sredljak), Ivanka Tomašić /Čardić/ (Ivka), Milica Zubatović, Slavica Tejin (Tejka), Smiljka Grajin (Miljka), in serbian
23-XI-2020 - 10-XI-2025